- Spiritual Truths
On a Monday 4 years ago, I spent 6 hours in labor & pushed out a beautiful baby girl. My goodness, how much my life has changed since then. It’s crazy to see how fast time has gone by. This little human has me at my wits ends sometimes. And sometimes she is the sweetest & funniest that she could be. Annali, daddy & mommy are blessed, nonetheless, to have you. I’m honestly getting teary as I type this.. As I’m looking at you sound asleep, it really saddens me but also makes me so proud of how much of a big girl you are now. I cannot wait to see you start school & achieve so many accomplishments in your beautiful life. Happy 4th birthday baby girl. We will love you, always. 💕 #AnnaliChristine #06172013 #firstborn
When you’ve lost almost all of your friendships and feel like you’re losing your marriage too.
The worst feeling is doing everything you can, and getting nothing for it..
Been somewhat envious of the lives I see around me. Don’t get me wrong, I love my life - my kids, how blessed I am to have them. But as I see people I went to high school with graduate, people becoming engaged or getting married, those that are traveling the world, or going back to school again… I can’t but feel like damn, I could’ve been like them. Of course, my life is the way it is because I chose to live it this way. But I just feel like my course was chosen because of my circumstances. Tommy has ambitions and goals he wants to achieve in the future. I am sitting here unsure of what I even want to do with my life anymore. It’s almost like I just lost my sense of purpose and passion. When I was still working I wished nothing more than to just stay home with my kids cause really I didn’t enjoy what I was doing. Now that I’ve been home for a few months, I love it. I love being home witnessing every moment of their growth. And then I added in watching my baby cousin. I’ve just been so exhausted. 2 is a handful but 3 is another story. My days are nothing but dirty bottles, diapers, laundry, and feeding little humans who need attention 24/7. I’m just wondering if this is all I would ever amount to. Like is this all I’ll ever be doing?? I just don’t know anymore. I’ve been all about keeping the kids and my husband happy. I’m not sure that I’m even happy now.
